Everything... I love the mental challenge... Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love.. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.
My last post was Jan 2010 and now its Feb 2011.. I am really bad at this but I will try and keep up this year... well at least this month.
So much has happened just today let alone the last year... where do I even begin....
So much has happened just today let alone the last year... where do I even begin....
Lets start with Benjamin..
He is almost 2 I can't believe April will be his 2nd birthday... I can't believe I have a 2 year old so crazy.. He is about 32 pounds and 2 feet 6 inches. he sometimes goes to bed with out crying and usually sleeps a good 12 hours... its amazing. He loves Monster Inc and Clifford the Big Red Dog. He would rather color with a pen then crayons and when he does have crayons he prefers the table top to paper.. He loves pasta, tomato's, shrimp, salsa, dried fruit and MILK.. that kid drinks so much milk but I guess that's better then what some kids drink on a regular basis. He is really chill and really funny. He also screams REALLLLLLLY loud and I sometimes wish I could take his voice box out or at least use duct tape.. :)
You can learn many things from a child, how much patience you have for instance!
Scott and I are still battling it out. We have been to court 4 times and I am now in the process of number 5.. Its ridiculous the outcome of our last court hearing.. I was simply asking for permission to move back to Sacramento and to have Scott granted every other weekend visitation which isn't to far off form what we had originally set up( the original agreement would give him 3 weekends) However the Judge decided that Scott the deadbeat that he is should be granted 50% custody at my expense.. the visitation is now 2 weeks with each parent at my expense.. which is totally unfair considering I was granted permission to move because I have ZERO money but she is going to make me pay all cost for visitation. PLUS take time away from me who has always been primary custodial parent and make my son pretty much move every two weeks and fly on a plane twice a month... UGHHHH its so aggravating.. I am constantly getting screwed over by Scott and LA court... SO I am trying to appeal it and hopefully get things somewhat worked out so I am not constantly getting fucked over. Even though Scott has more than he ever wanted and doesn't have to incur any financial responsibility for Benjamin other than is measly 170 a month in child support he still has the audacity to complain and bitch to me when I cant fully accommodate his schedule when I am tyring to buy plane tickets... Sorry I have no control over what time the planes take off..
Don't find the time to cry for me, Don't find the words to speak for me, Don't find the nerve to feel for me just get the FUCK away from me!
The rest of my life is good.. living back at my parents is not where I expected my life to be.. I sometimes wonder how my life got to be so complicated and it all started with moving to LA in 2007... bad idea!! anyways.. i want to try and keep things updated and written down so maybe one day my life might be interesting enough for a movie :)
I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word I am saying!!
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