Stranger Danger and Medicating Kids

A child is a curly dimpled lunatic. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

So yesterday I had the treat of flying with Benjamin in an airplane.. Something that he finds so fascinating! We were about 45 minutes early (Thanks Dad for taking us!) so we were able to watch the other BIG PLANES land and unload suitcase. Benjamin loved watching out the window he was so amazed by the plane and the people. It was really fun to watch and talk with him about everything going on. he was really good on the plane until it was time to actually get off then he wanted to sit in his chair with his seat belt on... it wasn't a full flight so we had the whole row to ourselves which was nice. He made friends with the guy sitting in front of us who let Benjamin read Jack and the Beanstalk on his Ipad... its really amazing to me the difference in responses Benjamin gets. Some people are welcoming and nice to him and others are appalled and irritated. I hope when I get old I don't get mean and nasty toward babies... Josh was waiting for us when we got off the plane and Benjamin could not have been happier to see him. He ran his crooked run with a huge smile on his face.. two peas in a pod those boys are...

Anyways....
So I had to give Benji to Scott for two weeks.. Scott wasn't even at the airport to pick Benjamin up, hes so pathetic.. His sister in law was there to get Benji and he didn't even look like he knew who she was.. It was an awful feeling to give my baby to someone he doesn't even know and I have no control over it.. Its not fair!! I understand that the judge and the justice system is there for the people.. But I really don't think this judge made a sound decision when deciding that my child should be away from his mother who he has been with his whole life for two weeks at a time and to a dad that wont give him the time a day let alone take responsibility for him.. AND at my expense. I don't know how I am going to survive this next couple months.. I have been to two malls and I have asked every store if they were hiring and only about 5 of them are and its only for part time.. How can someone live off min. wage with part time hours and support another person and pay for stupid fucking flights... I have an appointment to try and get things figured out so I know what my next step will be in fighting this insanity.. hopefully it goes well and is cheap enough.. what am i suppose to do the next two weeks with out my Benjamin.. I have school work to do but that's boring... I want to play and learn and be a mom but now I have nothing...

Of all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother.

So lets talk about something for a second... I am taking a class called the exceptional learner which educates me on how you might deal with a classroom full of disabled children from mental disabilities to learning and behavioral disorders. My assignment for this last week was to write a paper about the controversy of medicating children for ADHD... well it is said that there are over 6 million children in America that is on medication for behavioral disorders.. THIS IS CRAZY!! I am so torn because I watched a frontline about 4 different kids ages from 3 1/2 to 12 that were diagnosed and medicated.. some had good outcomes and others didn't. I don't agree that you can diagnose a 3 1/2 year old with a learning disability and stick them on medication, that is ludicrous to me. I feel that ADHD is a real thing and children have this problem but I don't agree that there are 6 million children!! America is the only country that really deals with behavioral medication WHY IS THAT???? because were fat slobs and we think that medication can cure everything. UGH is so sicking.. back in the 50's and 60's they didn't have this crap going on but then again America was a lot nicer and healthier and stable... now were fast food kings with huge beer guts that play into the drug company's... Now i am not trying to sound all hippish but this is a real problem.. to much is going on and our children and our future is suffering.. to many action packed videos that over stimulate the brain, not enough outside play.. too many happy meals not enough home cooked meals... to many divorces not enough stay at home moms or dads... our poor children and it makes me even sadder to think that I put Benjamin an innocent by standard in this predicament.. All i can do is be the best mom I can be and love him and teach him. I also feel that medicating our children gives us as parents and them as children the easy way out. You tell your 8 year old they have a disorder they will use that shit to their full advantage.. People need to be accountable for their actions and there needs to be appropriate consequences... Anyways I'm interested to see what other people think..



This will be the close of my blog for now but I am gonna start doing this thing I found on FB a picture for 30 days except mine will be a picture for 30 post bc I don't have enough in my life to post a blog for the next 30 days LOL...

1 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. I am 5 foot 4
2. I love Green beans and broccoli
3. I suck at walking in high heels but I love em
4. I break every computer and phone I own
5. According to josh I fart like a dude
6. I can remember song lyrics to about every song I have ever heard
7. I'm scared of the dark so I sleep with the TV on
8. I am a kleptomaniac
9. I have terrible anxiety about everything
10. I fell in love once
11. I never clip my finger or toe nails I always just rip them off
12. I still remember all my times table
13. I love chap stick
14. Benjamin is the smartest kid I know
15. I feel naked when I don't have a hair tie on my wrist.